MISSING SOMEONE

I don't know how many times I have started this blog titled "Missing Someone", but I never seem to get through it, but this time I am going to try my hardest to do it. I lost my grandmother two years ago. This person was my rock, my friend and more than anything in this world to me. We would talk for hours about anything, school, clothes, friends, boys, clubs that I was apart of in school and anything else that we wanted too. She was a wonderful person inside and out. She taught me how to sew, she taught me to be a young lady, she taught me everything and I miss that more than anything. We were going home for Christmas this past year and I was very still and quite. Kyle ask me what was wrong I said "have you ever missed someone so much that it makes your body hurt." He knew who I was talking about. It is like that every time we start to head home. I start thinking about her, everything she did for me and how I will never see this wonderful person again. She died the week after the big storm hit the coast. She didn't die from the storm, she died of old age. In fact she was 92 or 93 when she passed away. Anyway, I miss this person so much. Not a day goes by that I don't think about her and I know that she is looking down on me smiling and watching over me. I sometimes feel that she is sitting right beside me touching me on the shoulder or on my cheek. I am not crazy I truly believe this. I remember when I was younger I told her that when and if I get married and have a child and that child just happens to be a girl I was going to name her after her. She started laughing and said "oh, please honey don't do that to that child". I asked her why and she just laughed. Well, when Kyle and I started dating and talking about getting married and having children I asked him about the name I have always wanted to name my child. Well he said that was fine. When we found out that we were expecting I couldn't wait to tell her. She was so excited. When we found out we were having a girl, I couldn't wait to call her and let her know that it was a girl and what we were going to name it. At first we were not going to tell anyone, but I had to tell her so Kyle and I agreed that she would be the only one to know our babies name. So when I called her I said "well we are having a girl and her name is going to be "MAMIE", she almost fell out. She said "oh please don't do that to that child". I told her, well we are naming her Mamie and there is nothing you can do about it. I got a wonderful gift this past Christmas, I got a part of grandmother Mamie that I will have forever and ever and maybe just maybe one day my Mamie will get to wear it every day just like I do. Well, I could go on forever and ever about grandmother Mamie, but I need to stop now, my eyes are burning from the tears that are streaming out. So, I guess I could say that I am glad that I miss her so much that my body hurts, this just means I haven't forgot about this very special person that is now looking down on me and my family every day.........................